Saturday, September 07, 2013

On a normal Friday where I can finally end the week and enjoy my weekend.. Morning went buy Mac for breakfast and went to work just nice timing. And do my job and But 1030am. I receive my brother SMS "Ah ma had just pass away".. I stop eating my burger and was shocked until my aunt call me and immediate ask me come back. I was shock and don't know what to do. I apply my leave to my supervisor and my LO and my care teachers and faster rush back to my ah ma hse

I was crying all along while taking train walking home.. My mind in loss and I keep thinking it is not real.. Until reach my ah ma hse. my tears flow.. I can't stop crying and can't bear to see my ah ma lying in peace.. All my family and my ah children was all teary and discussing about the funeral and everything.. Doctor also come and declare due to stroke again and can't breathe therefore pass away.. I can't stop crying.. I nw also worry about my ah gong who will be alone nw.. I also cry when i see my ah gong crying and tearing.. I feel terrible and don't know what to do... This is really too sudden and my mind went blank.

It could be a tough week coz Tuesday could be another impt thing for my dad... And same time my ah ma will be cremated on Tuesday, 1pm. And also this few days wif chants and pray.. 

I want to say I Love u ah ma.. 

U have take care of me for past few years when I was small and when my parents was working.. 

U help me when I do naughty thing til my dad want to actually use a knife and chop my hand.

I like tabao for u the best mee hoon that u like the most the stalls and cooking hard-boiled eggs for my brother.. 

We always walk together to send the ironed clothes to my uncle nearby..

I feel heartbreak when u had stroke on last 17 years.. How i wish u never had stroke on last few years.

I feel terrible to see u lying in ur bed and unable to speak or slow movement.. 

I feel sad when ah gong will always take care of u always not matter rain or shine and he is the one who take care of u forever..

I feel very terrible nw she is gone and u are alone.. 

Ah ma, U are the best and I will always miss u. I hope u will take care of urself nw. And always bless ah gong.

I love you always.