Saturday, September 21, 2013

2 weeks

Is been 2 weeks after my ah ma pass away. Time really fast..

Actually ah gong seem get over it and see he very happy when every Thursday we gather as a family.. I feel happy for him and but also will continue visit every Thursday and Saturday

Left around 6 weeks to my end of SIP.. Damn sianz doing at BOC.. I can't reveal much here also.. But well get over asap ba.. Soon MP and busy day..

My dad in good condition after the operations.. Yeah and rest at home..

Posted by jun_wei at 4:14 PM

Sunday, September 15, 2013

7th day

1209

My ah ma die for 7th day.. Chinese traditional that need to pray for 7th day, 49th day and 100th day and yearly.. Is still kinda of shock even though I still can't believe my ah ma just leave.

1109 (wed) - morning went to collect my ah ma ashes and skull and pray.. Again feel emotional and Cry but hope that ah ma will rest in peace and always bless ah gong and family..

Yesterday (1409) went to my ah ma hse to visit ah gong.. I can feel the lonely of my ah gong.. I know he trying to get over and be strong but in his heart I think he can't get over..

Every time everyday the routine of my ah gong is wake up and help ah ma have breakfast.. Help ah ma do her exercise then lunch help my ah ma eat and also do exercise. Ah gong also will go bath after my ah ma bath and go exercise walking alone.. Tea break milo for ah ma coffee ah gong. And dinner watch tv wif my ah ma.

I can still remember everytime help my ah ma tabao her favorite pork porridge..

Is kind of sad when the partner u live for few years suddenly gone away.. The feeling of lonelyiness suck and empty.

Is been 10 days.. And well honest I still don't believe

Posted by jun_wei at 10:26 PM

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Farewell

Yesterday (09-09) is the 2nd last day of the funeral.. And the ruital start around 3pm and 8pm where all will gather listen prayer and burn the big house..

Feel damn sad when saw my uncle and aunt and even my mum cry.. Tml farewell will be more sad..

Coz of my dad operation tml also.. I unable to attend my ah ma farewell.. My brothers and mum will be there..

If I go farewell I will also cry for her..

Ah ma,

It is too sudden that you have left us.. We feel damn shocked and very sad.. Especially ah gong who always saw ur photo or u he will cry..

I am sorry unable to attend the farewell.

Deeply apologize

I hope u can bless my dad operation is success and nothing major.

I hope u can also look out for ah gong.. I will spend more time for ah gong.

Take care ah ma.. U will be always in my heart.

Posted by jun_wei at 4:36 AM

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Feel sad when I saw my ah gong cry when he saw my ah ma..

Helpless

Posted by jun_wei at 11:37 AM

Saturday, September 07, 2013

Ah Ma

06-09-2013 A tribute to my ah ma

On a normal Friday where I can finally end the week and enjoy my weekend.. Morning went buy Mac for breakfast and went to work just nice timing. And do my job and But 1030am. I receive my brother SMS "Ah ma had just pass away".. I stop eating my burger and was shocked until my aunt call me and immediate ask me come back. I was shock and don't know what to do. I apply my leave to my supervisor and my LO and my care teachers and faster rush back to my ah ma hse

I was crying all along while taking train walking home.. My mind in loss and I keep thinking it is not real.. Until reach my ah ma hse. my tears flow.. I can't stop crying and can't bear to see my ah ma lying in peace.. All my family and my ah children was all teary and discussing about the funeral and everything.. Doctor also come and declare due to stroke again and can't breathe therefore pass away.. I can't stop crying.. I nw also worry about my ah gong who will be alone nw.. I also cry when i see my ah gong crying and tearing.. I feel terrible and don't know what to do... This is really too sudden and my mind went blank.

It could be a tough week coz Tuesday could be another impt thing for my dad... And same time my ah ma will be cremated on Tuesday, 1pm. And also this few days wif chants and pray..

I want to say I Love u ah ma..

U have take care of me for past few years when I was small and when my parents was working..

U help me when I do naughty thing til my dad want to actually use a knife and chop my hand.

I like tabao for u the best mee hoon that u like the most the stalls and cooking hard-boiled eggs for my brother..

We always walk together to send the ironed clothes to my uncle nearby..

I feel heartbreak when u had stroke on last 17 years.. How i wish u never had stroke on last few years.

I feel terrible to see u lying in ur bed and unable to speak or slow movement..

I feel sad when ah gong will always take care of u always not matter rain or shine and he is the one who take care of u forever..

I feel very terrible nw she is gone and u are alone..

Ah ma, U are the best and I will always miss u. I hope u will take care of urself nw. And always bless ah gong.

I love you always.

Posted by jun_wei at 12:16 AM

Friday, September 06, 2013

Sudden

This is too sudden.. I can't imagine what happen nw really happen too fast..

I am crying when heard the bad news and can't stop the tears.. I wish is nt true and hope it just a dream not reality.. I don't know what to say..

This week will be a tough week for me.